Part 2 – The Healing Journey With FND……..

Back on June 26, I told of my introduction to the invisible illness, known as ‘Functional Neurological Disorder’ with “Once Upon A Time….Living With Invisible Illness”.

Once Upon A Time…..Living With A Body Filled With Invisible Illness. – A Barefoot Goddess On A Journey
https://abarefootgoddessonajourney.wordpress.com/2017/06/26/once-upon-a-time-living-with-a-body-filled-with-invisible-illness/


They were dark times…….many days filled with limb spasms, seizures, falls, lots of falls caused by chronic balance issues. Living with symptoms such as these, left me mentally, physically and emotionally drained and it seemed like no one understood. But, it really broke me when the paralysis down my right side occurred……I had to rely totally on those closest to me. Using cutlery was out, I had forgotten how to do my shoelaces up, my walking gait was non existent if I wanted to stay upright, but what made it worst, was that I could no longer crochet. Crochet was my thing….as it was something I could do…..when I couldn’t do anything at all, so not even being able to do that was like a nuclear bomb had gone off.

How was I going to get better…..how could I heal from this, those were my thoughts, constantly.

As, I had mentioned in my previous blog…..I was discharged from hospital with numerous referrals. A couple of weeks went on, when finally I began to receive home based NeuroPhysio to begin the process of helping me learn the art of ‘functional movement’. My home based physio, was wonderful. She pushed me but only as much as I needed. Over what would be four weeks, she enabled me to be able to sit and stand from my sofa, there was still wobbles and shakes but my brain was picking up signals from the body and I was making positive progress. Walking was very difficult and prior to therapy I only had been given a walking stick, which was pretty much useless. My home based physio was able to help me get a walker. Initially I wasn’t completely in agreeable to this mobility aid….but I soon found that it was a godsend. I could use it to help me progress my sit to stand. Using it to help teach me to formulate a walking gait was brilliant. Over, I think it was six weeks, she had really assisted my confidence towards mobility. Home based was then changed to centre based NeuroPhysio. I was lucky to be able to given another therapist that knew what FND was. From day one, we formed a bond. At the Williamstown Hospital where I was having physical therapy, I also began OT (occupational therapy) and thanks to my physio, I had an excellent OT plan created, allowing me to slowly build strength in my paralysed right hand. It was slow going. Some sessions, would see me move my hand, perhaps 5 cm along the table. But that activity caused such fatigue that I would sleep for a day and a half. NeuroPhysio was able to help me again help reconnect my internal software into knowing that to step I had to lift the leg up and down……up and down, again these sessions were also slow. It’s all progress, though and I learnt that even a little is the beginning of reconnecting my brains wiring to my body’s wiring.

In addition to the physical therapy, I began seeing a neuropsychologist. Again, I was sceptical how this could assist but as time went on, I began to learn that it was a spiralling of many things across my entire life that had caused my software malfunction. I had to work through the abuse that I had endured as a child and teenager as well as the many years living with the chronic combination of illnesses. I began to find that as my mind was being able to be cleansed of all the dark clutter that I had chosen to lock inside me, my body also was able to be cleansed. This psych work was working alongside the physical therapy.

I continue to use the physical therapies with the therapy to help the mental trauma, so that I can perhaps live the life that I most love. You see due to extreme fatigue and still requiring the walking frame for mobility when out n about I can’t work a ‘normal’ 40 hour job. I spend everyday working on healing, with the therapies that I’ve spoken about as well as using an adaptive yoga and meditation. I am also a vegan and I truly believe all my healing modalities are helping me to progress to those dreams and goals of living the life that I love. 

Although I cannot work a normal job, I now act as a advocate and speaker for invisible illnesses. Each day, I get stronger I seek to add more objectives and goals for raising awareness, support and research for illnesses, such as FND. If you’ve been following me, you would have noticed that I am creating a ongoing campaign known as #lightingtheflame for #invisibleillness that works on shining a light on all unseen health conditions. My other campaign is #standingup4FND and that is fully focused on functional neurological disorder and will be linked to my future documentary and book.

Functional Neurological Disorder is an ongoing battle to overcome, as the symptoms flow in and out without any notice. Some symptoms can be lived with, others leave me severely impaired. This disorder, is a illness that very few know about and that includes the specialist medical fraternity. For I and many others across my country of Australia and many other countries worldwide to progress with our healing we need much needed awareness, support and so much more research.


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I want us all to be able to walk together, so let’s bring a wave of kindness to stamp out the stigma that exists currently with regard to all invisible illness.
Much love 
TBG πŸ’‹

Journaling Thoughts, Brings Affirmations That Transform…..

Journaling today, has set my agenda for the new week ahead! That agenda is all about health being without a doubt, wealth. To create the type of wealth I want for my mental and physical health, I need to set daily intentions with affirmations, that keeps my ignition on full power.  Living with invisible illness, that ideology can be hard but with practice, when you set the mind to think healthy thoughts, you can stay on board the track to filling up on a wealth of health.

The connection between our mind and body is becoming more prominent, with regard to healing the illnesses that we cannot see.  You see, a lot of invisible illnesses are heightened by negative thought and emotions because our immune systems have been lowered and compromised for an abundant number of reasons. When we can allow our minds to become still and calm, we give ourselves a chance to heal right down to the cellular core.
Living with chronic and invisible health conditions, many of us allow our emotions to be controlled by our thought patterns and these  very thought patterns are often formed at will, when needed to comfort us when we are in fear or doubt about health and life. Setting intentions using affirmations daily, help us to create new and more positive thought patterns and thus help us to develop new strategies for healing our health.
The quote, β€œChange your thoughts, change your life” is so profound when building stronger and resilient health foundations. You can fill the mind with new healing health thoughts and actions when you choose to use regular positive health intentions and affirmations. One such affirmation that I use every single day is this beauty – 

“Every passing day my body becomes more energetic, more healthy.”

Repeating affirmations like this one, over and over has absolutely helped me find new and positive steps into healing my health. Even, when the day is glum, simply allowing myself to find a place to be still brings me back to the heart of my affirmation and positivity reigns over the pain and suffering that maybe being felt. The process of repeating a sentence as an intention or affirmation, over and over regularly impresses the subconscious mind, so that it slowly starts transforming the body to align with the mental thoughts that you want to attract.

As I said before , there is more and more  profound evidence through medical research, about chemicals, naturally found in our bodies reacting differently to emotions in our  minds, thus making us negative or positive. When we are healthy and happy, the  chemicals  produce emotions that are helpful to us.  When we are sad and perhaps ill of health, these chemicals are harmful to our bodies. Thus, thoughts affect the body. It is clear that positive affirmations for health can have only positive effects on the body. 

So I believe, by selecting a affirmation that will help create new health boundaries is an important step to finding that wealth of health. The affirmation I mentioned earlier is on repeat many times a day internally and externally for me.  I will generally use one main affirmation for many months or until I can see it manifesting what I am affirming into my reality, but I do have other affirmations and intentions that I can use at particular times. Affirmations complement my more mainstream medical treatments BUT they do not replace them and nor would I want them too. I have not discontinued any treatment or medication, that my doctors have prescribed, however by using affirmations, I have strengthened my mind and body allowing positive change to help me achieve a much better journey towards holding the health and life that I want. By following this path, slowly but surely I am reducing medications and treatments to more natural and holistic ways of healing.

These are some of my other favourite affirmations that I have used and still use;

  • My mind is calm and peaceful, allowing me to be more energetic & vibrant in thought and action.
  • Every day is a new day full of hope, happiness and health.
  • I am my own creator, because I create who I am and what I am.
  • I breathe in deeply, so that every cell in my body is conscious to greatness.

So as I closed my journal this morning…..my breath took me to a place where I stand wth so much power.  That power is because I align so closely to the affirmation that sings in my heart with every breath I take and make. Even with my tired days, I can feel energy transforming my most inner self allowing within me that without a doubt health is wealth and I am becoming abundant in all areas of it.

If my ramblings today, about journaling and affirmations have helped you,  that makes me happy.  Because by sharing my experiences of living with invisible illness in despair and joy is why I light the flame for greater awareness. If we haven’t connected in social media yet, make sure you jump by and say hi on the following channels and if you want to light the flame for invisible illness, we launch tomorrow.

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Much love
TBG πŸ’‹

Tired, Weary, Broken & Fucked Up……..

So what happens when we fall……and we all do!

You know, those moments when we are tired, weary, broken & fucked up!!!!


These thoughts, feelings and actions occur when we live with invisible illness. These are the moments that make us need to keep fighting the pain of being chronically and invisibly ill. Illnesses such as anxiety, depression, autoimmune and neurological disorders fill us with scars that embed deeply into our mental, emotional and physical being. 

Beginning the process of healing and recovery from these debilitating illnesses takes work BUT throughout the process and progress, low energy succumbs and we fall……! We tire and perhaps stumble from all the work that it takes to recover AND it affects us…..and if this happens, we fall and we break!!!! 

When this happens, we feel that we have fucked everything up……all that progress-RUINED!

But these emotions that come and go when wandering a journey with invisible illness are real and we should not be ashamed of letting the world see them! We haven’t fucked up….it’s a stumble and yeah, if we fall, it’s just that a fall…..stand back up – be present and be YOU! Remember even mentally and physically strong people fall! This conversation that I am having tonight is such a strong anti-suicide message, for why fighting is so important to remember when we are overwhelmed with the chronic pain and suffering of these illnesses.

You are saying. . . but at these moments I’m too tired to keep fighting……Yeah, I get it, I’ve felt really tired too and YES I still tire after all my 15 years fighting……but I won’t give up, I don’t give up!

Invisible illnesses are diseases that can take a life time to recover from. They grind away at our inner most core, sucking the life out of us, just as we are rebuilding ourselves up from the ground. The fight becomes a moment to moment battle everyday and as we go, we have to listen to the self whispering, but more than that we have to stand up to our voices and the external voices who don’t recognise our illnesses as illnesses……it’s exhausting, and it’s why we get tired, weary and feel broken and fucked up!

These illnesses, these invisible fucking illnesses never take holidays so every day and every night you have to fight, fight and fight again. You might be finding the biggest reasons in the world to give up, but those reasons don’t need to be your reality. In fighting these illnesses, no one can see or know how hard you’re working to keep going every day. The fight is hard and in the walk to recovery you will feel broken.

BUT, WE NEED TO FIGHT……I know, you are saying, you don’t want too,  sometimes I have said that too, but you don’t get to stop. I’m sorry, but the statistics say life is better than death and I insist you go on living……I am and I do!

But the good news is that when you choose to fight, you choose to take your next breath. Our invisible illnesses want to steal us of everything that we want to and need to experience today, tomorrow and the days after that. But we are  not going to let these illnesses win. We are going to breathe in and out, one breath at a time, each and everyday knowing that this is our best fight and it’s enough, it will always be enough, because I am enough and you are enough!

Being tired is OK. Being weary is OK, feeling broken and yelling that we have fucked up is OK. But by taking the next breath…..after the yelling session, is all we need to do…..because that’s the process of the healing fight.
If you are resonating with my thoughts, feelings and conversations tonight please let me know, by liking and sharing this blog.

 I write about my experiences with wandering a journey with all the invisible illnesses that are part of me because when we share our stories we connect and help each other.

I am a advocate and speaker who has made it my mission to change the way healing and recovery is seen for all that live with invisible illness.

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If you are struggling……that’s ok but remember to find the breath…..breathe in and breathe out so the fight continues.

Much love 
TBG πŸ’‹

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I’ve Been Gifted & Now I’m Gifting You, The Art Of Meditation….

Today I recorded my first set of healing meditations.

This has been a huge step for me, as it has put me on a platform of knowing that through mindful action I have learnt to control my inner most thoughts and it has set me on my newest path to determining a true quality of life.

Through meditation I have found the ability to control those words that nobody else can hear. By learning how to turn down or better turning off that inner voice, I’ve been able to shift not only my internal actions but also my external happenings. In doing this, I am improving my brain functions that have been severely impacted by a range of of chronic illnesses over many years.

Meditation heals and it has allowed me to go within my own self, learning how my thoughts, feelings and actions can be breathed clearly and freely without stress and judgement that the busyness of modern world gives.

Meditation changes lives and it has changed mine! It has brought me a new level of awareness and a form of gentle art that is changing the way I do things. It allows me a sense of positivity that absolutely brings me peace of mind through an internal light that has been switched on giving me so much happiness to my healing journey. This is why everyday I wake to meditation that sets the foundations to the rest of my day. To ensure my day stays as it starts I will stop for shortened meditation sessions. These shorter meditations are also great, if external stresses come flowing across life! Of course, just as I did when I awoke I also allow meditation in before I go to sleep. These moments of going inwards allows me to let go of all the daily thoughts and actions,  in readiness for my mind and body to rest.

Meditation has given me a gift that I shall always be grateful for and that’s why I would like to offer you the same gift. If you would like to try using meditation to help your healing journey please email me at harmonishakti@gmail.com
Much love 

TBG πŸ’‹

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Meditation, You Are My Intimate Friend….πŸ™πŸ»

Tonight, as most nights I sat with stillness – yes meditation AND can I tell you what I deciphered is that my meditation is sitting intimately with thy self saying hello beautifully and blissfully. 
Being able to develop and create such a internal connection is a special kind of inner relationship that leads me to being able to make amazing magic in life, despite the crippling hurdles that have been met.
I say to you, if you are struggling take a moment or maybe a few and let the journey with mindfulness take you away. Let it take you to you, through your breathe in every beat! What you will find is a friendship like no other AND it’s a friendship that can greet you whenever you choose to take its hand…..
Are you ready?
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Stay healthy, mind, body & soul,

Harmoni πŸ’‹

Stress – It Does Make Us Sick!

Need something else to get stressed out about on this Sunday evening!

Ok here it is, stress itself can and does make you sick. It. doesn’t only make us feel awful emotionally, it can and does also worsen just any health condition that we can think of . Don’t get too stressed out about being stressed out, though because there is some good news and that is there are 4 simple stress relief tips using mindfulness, that can counter and lower further health issues. 

The next time you feel stressed, try one of these simple easy tips;
1 – Breathe deeply. Just a few minutes of deep breathing can calm you and tame the fight or flight stress response. Try creating a specific time to relax each day is a good idea. Also one advantage to using deep breathing for stress relief is that you can do it anywhere. Also as you breathe out, try relaxing a certain muscle groups. Move through the different areas of your body until you’re feeling calm.

2 – Focus on the NOW moment. 

When you’re stressed, you’re probably living in the future or the past. You’re worried about what to do next or regretful about something you’ve already done. To get some stress relief, instead try focusing on what you’re doing right now. If you’re walking, feel the sensation of your legs moving. If you’re eating, focus on the taste and the sensation of the food. No matter what you are doing – focus on the NOW moment!

3 – Look At The Situation Differently.

So you’re running late and stuck in terrible traffic or you have missed the train. Getting worked up is a natural reaction, but it won’t help you at all. Rather than swearing, cursing or crying – see things in a different circumstance. Look at time as an opportunity – a chance for you to be alone for yourself . 

4 – Don’t Let Your Problems Grow Bigger Than They Need To Be.

Next time you’re feeling stressed out, don’t let the stress grow instead think of the things for which you are grateful. It can be a effective method for stress relief.

I know these are my most important go to stress relief tips particularly if I am going through chronic illness flare ups or particularly stressful circumstances along my journey of life.

I would love to know what you think and if you have any tips that help calm your stress levels, please share.

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Much love 

The Barefoot Goddess πŸ’‹

“Wandering Towards Wellness, Globally “

For Just One Minute – Walk Ourside & Breathe In The Beauty Of Life….

For one minute come with me on a mindful adventure – Walk outside,Stand there in silence – look up at the beautiful sky and just breathe. It’s these times that you realise, how beautiful  life really is. 

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