Tired, Weary, Broken & Fucked Up……..

So what happens when we fall……and we all do!

You know, those moments when we are tired, weary, broken & fucked up!!!!


These thoughts, feelings and actions occur when we live with invisible illness. These are the moments that make us need to keep fighting the pain of being chronically and invisibly ill. Illnesses such as anxiety, depression, autoimmune and neurological disorders fill us with scars that embed deeply into our mental, emotional and physical being. 

Beginning the process of healing and recovery from these debilitating illnesses takes work BUT throughout the process and progress, low energy succumbs and we fall……! We tire and perhaps stumble from all the work that it takes to recover AND it affects us…..and if this happens, we fall and we break!!!! 

When this happens, we feel that we have fucked everything up……all that progress-RUINED!

But these emotions that come and go when wandering a journey with invisible illness are real and we should not be ashamed of letting the world see them! We haven’t fucked up….it’s a stumble and yeah, if we fall, it’s just that a fall…..stand back up – be present and be YOU! Remember even mentally and physically strong people fall! This conversation that I am having tonight is such a strong anti-suicide message, for why fighting is so important to remember when we are overwhelmed with the chronic pain and suffering of these illnesses.

You are saying. . . but at these moments I’m too tired to keep fighting……Yeah, I get it, I’ve felt really tired too and YES I still tire after all my 15 years fighting……but I won’t give up, I don’t give up!

Invisible illnesses are diseases that can take a life time to recover from. They grind away at our inner most core, sucking the life out of us, just as we are rebuilding ourselves up from the ground. The fight becomes a moment to moment battle everyday and as we go, we have to listen to the self whispering, but more than that we have to stand up to our voices and the external voices who don’t recognise our illnesses as illnesses……it’s exhausting, and it’s why we get tired, weary and feel broken and fucked up!

These illnesses, these invisible fucking illnesses never take holidays so every day and every night you have to fight, fight and fight again. You might be finding the biggest reasons in the world to give up, but those reasons don’t need to be your reality. In fighting these illnesses, no one can see or know how hard you’re working to keep going every day. The fight is hard and in the walk to recovery you will feel broken.

BUT, WE NEED TO FIGHT……I know, you are saying, you don’t want too,  sometimes I have said that too, but you don’t get to stop. I’m sorry, but the statistics say life is better than death and I insist you go on living……I am and I do!

But the good news is that when you choose to fight, you choose to take your next breath. Our invisible illnesses want to steal us of everything that we want to and need to experience today, tomorrow and the days after that. But we are  not going to let these illnesses win. We are going to breathe in and out, one breath at a time, each and everyday knowing that this is our best fight and it’s enough, it will always be enough, because I am enough and you are enough!

Being tired is OK. Being weary is OK, feeling broken and yelling that we have fucked up is OK. But by taking the next breath…..after the yelling session, is all we need to do…..because that’s the process of the healing fight.
If you are resonating with my thoughts, feelings and conversations tonight please let me know, by liking and sharing this blog.

 I write about my experiences with wandering a journey with all the invisible illnesses that are part of me because when we share our stories we connect and help each other.

I am a advocate and speaker who has made it my mission to change the way healing and recovery is seen for all that live with invisible illness.

If you would like to connect further, please do so on my social media platforms;

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If you are struggling……that’s ok but remember to find the breath…..breathe in and breathe out so the fight continues.

Much love 
TBG 💋

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Meditation, You Are My Intimate Friend….🙏🏻

Tonight, as most nights I sat with stillness – yes meditation AND can I tell you what I deciphered is that my meditation is sitting intimately with thy self saying hello beautifully and blissfully. 
Being able to develop and create such a internal connection is a special kind of inner relationship that leads me to being able to make amazing magic in life, despite the crippling hurdles that have been met.
I say to you, if you are struggling take a moment or maybe a few and let the journey with mindfulness take you away. Let it take you to you, through your breathe in every beat! What you will find is a friendship like no other AND it’s a friendship that can greet you whenever you choose to take its hand…..
Are you ready?
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Stay healthy, mind, body & soul,

Harmoni 💋

From Thoughts Of Suicide To Manifesting Changes In Health & Life For ME and YOU ❤️❤️❤️

So, I begin by apologising for going MIA but WOW, it’s been the best MIA that I’ve had in a long while…..but as you will see that my vision for life is grand and through my eyes, life is beautiful when you breathe even the smallest breaths.

As, I return to my writing space, today I’ve found the energy has been as epic as FUCK and I apologise for the language, BUT seriously there is no other way of explaining the growth in me as a little woman stepping her path through the world of chronic illness.

You see, there has been years of pain, years of suffering… I’ve moved forward so many times I’ve lost count…only, yes you guessed it…BOOM back flat on my face – SICK, oh so sick again!!!


As 2015 ended their was change in the waters AND not as you or I would expect! However, change caused myself to spew all kinds of dreadful lava – it was a FUCKING concoction filled with all kinds of mental, physical and emotional toxins! My goddess vibe was lost, I was choking for air, for life…I FELL from grace! I had failed, my affirmations, my mindfulness in all its glory and I was an ash filled pit …internally I was shouting “STOP WORLD, I CANNOT DO THIS – I WANT OUT!!!!

YES, that’s right… I’ve caught your attention! SUICIDE, no one had seen me looking, researching ways or means BUT in that one split second after an altercation about my pain with doctors that can’t even understand my symptoms, let alone chronic conditions I was out of my ward towards the hospitals main doors! I could escape, I could run in front of a truck, better still a tram AND I WOULD BE IN PEACE

No, nothing goes to plan when you walk with chronic and destructive illnesses and that is something I am so BLOODY glad of! I am ever so GRATEFUL for a body that fell on the floor and couldn’t get up- I couldn’t take my life!!!! Because in that next split second, I had nurses around me, my doctors, mental health specialists of every kind! They finally were seeing the internal struggles foaming like lava. 

 

That eruption of mental emotion, gave me the key that I had been long searching for. I reached out my hand and there were many hands outstretched alongside mine. They had always been there but being consumed by the mass array of crap stuck in both mind and body I couldn’t see good from bad. Anyway, I and the supporting hands joined as ONE- we reached and we grabbed that key and opened up the door.

From, that very moment the key had opened up tomorrow…there has been such a aura of light! One only if you have felt this that you can imagine. But, with the light, my dreams for my health, my message and mission in life and business was awakened…I was awakened!


SO, I BRING YOU BACK TO TODAY & WHAT HAS BEEN TRANSFORMING internally and externally. It is eternally and gob-smackering real, raw, vulnerable and so freakishly uplifting in every sense of my being!

I am NOT, the FUCKING hooded villain that lives and breathes pain and so much suffering, I am a goddess born to feel these hurts, so that I can awaken and light up the world with a most mastered and personal message and mission!

What I have learnt across this journey, wandered is that I love myself and  I believe in myself AND do you know my journey filtering right back to day dot…I had never loved or believed in myself…so this journey is one that I’ve had to step.


I am healing, it’s been small steps, BUT it’s these steps that allow me to truly step out into the world as the barefoot goddess “naked & free”! 

What I mean by “naked & free” is by the way my beautiful bodies soul can now speak with such fluent truth through vulnerability and with such light through torturous healing. So, I now walk to take on the haters, the nay-sayers, the many medico’s that walked away ignorant of what was so wrong with my health. Yes… I am naked and free literally and metaphorically for my journey and yours.

My steps, are far encompassing my little house in Melbourne, Australia. You see, people from as far abroad as London to San Francisco and India to Japan are looking, listening and hearing my words for wandering towards healing and wellness. I walk and I wander and I talk outwardly importantly for me, but also for YOU. 


I walk with you, lighting the way, finding solutions not excuses – BECAUSE, THIS WAY WE WILL MAKE CHANGES TO THE WAY OUR WORLD BREATHES.

I walk every step using small barefooted steps and blissful breaths because we see how beautiful life is according to every one of our dreams. We must not give up, we must come together so that most important key to finding health and ourselves within the dark mess that is chronically invisible illness. 


I want my journey to inspire my tribe, which then shows the greater world just what can be achieved when we walk as one with a much more individually aligned and unconsciously conscious health plan and support team are in place. 

STEPPING FURTHER FORWARD- I want you, yes YOU, the one that is ready to give up, the one that is sick of being sick. I want you, the one that everyone tells you that your NOT really sick!!!

YOU ARE PART OF MY TRIBE!


By joining my tribe and no matter how different our individual chronically ill paths are, we walk for presence in the present today and tomorrow. The further we walk, the closer we become one united team building the health and life that we love. 

The Tribal Path let’s us;

  • Find calmness in our healing
  • Gain newly embraced mindset and belief systems 
  • Appreciate our struggles & celebrations
  • Find mindfulness to remove the chronic clutter from mind & body

By walking together we also bring new members in that once were ignorant of our paths BUT now walk with us sharing stories of hope and raising so much wanted awareness. As, we build this beautiful connection of togetherness we are impacting the world with massive amounts of kindness, compassion and action using my original message and mission statement of;


SO, I ASK YOU – “ARE YOU READY TO JOIN MY TRIBE?”

  • You will find a path to managing and controlling your chronic health conditions letting you concentrate on living the life that you dream of.
  • You will be connected to like minded souls, also making massive healing health and life changes.
  • Instead of negative excuses, your mindset will be filled with positive affirmation and intention.

If this is YOU, email me now at theblessedgoddessproject@gmail.com

Life is beautiful and we must not ever be consumed with the pain of debilitating and destructive illnesses, guilt and self hate, that we give up on our dreams. Let’s walk together, let’s wander towards healing and wellness globally for our health and the millions of future generations that maybe struck down by chronic pain and illness.

SO, I ASK YOU ONCE MORE – “ARE YOU READY TO JOIN MY TRIBE?”

It is FREE and we WANT you.

Email me at theblessedgoddessproject@gmail.com and let the tribal dance of life as your truest and best self begin.

Gratitude and love to you all and after reading this blog, if this resonates in any way please connect and join the tribe. If you know someone that you think may find my tribe helpful, please share with them. This is not a short journey- this is a long walk to finding health, raising awareness and sharing other goddesses stories . The world needs me and it needs you too.

Till next time,

Lisa-Raie 💋

**Sidenote – I could send gratitude to many and I have many times and I will continue to, but these blessings go out to the beautiful woman in Erin & Ann, (NeuroPhysio & OT) that assist me with gaining my physical strength back. You knew me, better than I knew myself when we first connected. To Dr Lauren Sanders, neurologist who steps outside the normal healing box and brings alternative treatments that work. Dr Mark Pace for never stopping, when other medicos did. My psychologist Peter who has allowed me to unleash a whole lot of cluttered crap that I really didnt want unleashed but now understand what part it played in all of my health complexities. Finally their is first, my husband Paul, who has been there with me through every good,bad and indifferent moment. You are my best friend, my lover and truly I kept going because of you. Secondly and specially mentioned is my youngest son, Joey. He is one of the bravest, smartest, kindest and compassionate kids going around. He has Aspergers (ASD) & a number of genetic and behavioral disorders so life has not been a smooth trek for him either, but he walks everyday with love brimming out of him for me and his father. That’s the love that comes from above and I think filters through him from my late mum who rests above.**

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“Wandering Towards Wellness, Globally”

Balance Its Crucial For Our Journey Of Life…..

Learning to find balance is something that I’ve had to work really hard on, but it’s also something that has allowed me to get through my hardest days living with pain, illness and disease. Today, I wanted to share some of my key pointers which have taught me to be more balanced with health, life but simply being me.

Living with multiple chronic illnesses has meant finding balance in a unstable journey of life, but one I am truly grateful for walking . I believe, I needed to experience the extreme highs and lows of life, in order to try out different things and find what worked for me as a individual. It was crucial to find what makes me sad, happy, infact it was crucial for me to find my whole true inner self. I now know that if I don’t feel like doing or saying something, I  don’t and instead I will do something like sit in silence through meditation or just simply chilling out with some TV or music. I know that one bad day or night isn’t going to have a negative impact  on my  lifestyle and journey. Learning to stay balanced helps me to stay content and  more able to concentrate on daily goals, future plans and visions. 
If you find yourself struggling to find balance, perhaps try the key pointers that have helped me ;

  • Switching Off The Phone can be one of the best ways to begin to find balance, because simply stepping away from the craziness of social media is great for the mind, body & soul. Not being in the social media busyness for even one day lets us concentrate on ourselves and what truly is important in our lives.
  • Step Outside on to the green grass with bare feet if you can, simply stand there in silence feeling the fresh air blowing through your hair and against your skin. The simple force of Mother Nature is another key pointer for allowing our bodies to feel more calm and balanced.
  • Stop, Reflect & Refreshing ourselves by taking time to think and write down what’s most important to us. To do this daily is a fantastic way to bring balance into a busy of hectic life. Practice writing your list of goals or perhaps start journalling to release feelings whether they are happy, sad or indifferent. Simply by stopping for ourselves we are equaling the scales of the journey that we are walking and when we do this , things start to fall into place.

So, that’s my three important key pointers that help me stay more calm and balanced. Of course, not everyday is smooth but when I concentrate on practicing these features life is calm, making me calm so that the path I move forward in remains calm and balanced.

I would love to know how you find ways to remain and live a calm and balanced lifestyle. Leave a comment and of course if you resonate with what I’ve written- hit the like button and share it with others that may need some help with bringing balance into life.

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