7 daily habits, that will change your life;
1 – wake up
2 – complain less
3 – teach others
4 – roll with change
5 – be on time
6 – practice kindness
7 – stay positive
Tag: this is me
Life according to me, in thought and action……
Living life according to me in thoughts and actions looks and feels something like this;
- I try to keep everything simple, but when I want to achieve something, I do it with all my heart! That sometimes, goes awry.
- I am a over-thinker. Letting the truth, be told I have 100s of imaginary scenario playing in my head at any one time….sometimes this makes situations more difficult than it should be but well this is how I am and it’s how I make the magic happen.
- Health and life issues will always challenge me, as I aren’t someone who keep things to themselves anymore. I used to hold it all inside until I became toxic to anyone or anything, now I will confront the challenges head on, till I am facing back in the right direction. I am real and raw and that’s not always easy, but it’s the difficult times that push me back through to better days. Although I know life can’t be perfect, it’s the want of perfection that makes think a lot which at times causes the challenges that mess up particular situations.
- I am one of the best listeners. I can listen to others stories all day, everyday and I will listen to every story with keen interest even if it’s about something I don’t understand. I know the importance of listening and I want others to reciprocate that.
So this is me and this is how I wander the shores of the globe preaching and teaching about my experiences and beliefs. It may not be normal, but what is normal anyway!
Much love
Harmoni 💋
Part 2 – The Healing Journey With FND……..
Back on June 26, I told of my introduction to the invisible illness, known as ‘Functional Neurological Disorder’ with “Once Upon A Time….Living With Invisible Illness”.
Once Upon A Time…..Living With A Body Filled With Invisible Illness. – A Barefoot Goddess On A Journey
https://abarefootgoddessonajourney.wordpress.com/2017/06/26/once-upon-a-time-living-with-a-body-filled-with-invisible-illness/
They were dark times…….many days filled with limb spasms, seizures, falls, lots of falls caused by chronic balance issues. Living with symptoms such as these, left me mentally, physically and emotionally drained and it seemed like no one understood. But, it really broke me when the paralysis down my right side occurred……I had to rely totally on those closest to me. Using cutlery was out, I had forgotten how to do my shoelaces up, my walking gait was non existent if I wanted to stay upright, but what made it worst, was that I could no longer crochet. Crochet was my thing….as it was something I could do…..when I couldn’t do anything at all, so not even being able to do that was like a nuclear bomb had gone off.
How was I going to get better…..how could I heal from this, those were my thoughts, constantly.
As, I had mentioned in my previous blog…..I was discharged from hospital with numerous referrals. A couple of weeks went on, when finally I began to receive home based NeuroPhysio to begin the process of helping me learn the art of ‘functional movement’. My home based physio, was wonderful. She pushed me but only as much as I needed. Over what would be four weeks, she enabled me to be able to sit and stand from my sofa, there was still wobbles and shakes but my brain was picking up signals from the body and I was making positive progress. Walking was very difficult and prior to therapy I only had been given a walking stick, which was pretty much useless. My home based physio was able to help me get a walker. Initially I wasn’t completely in agreeable to this mobility aid….but I soon found that it was a godsend. I could use it to help me progress my sit to stand. Using it to help teach me to formulate a walking gait was brilliant. Over, I think it was six weeks, she had really assisted my confidence towards mobility. Home based was then changed to centre based NeuroPhysio. I was lucky to be able to given another therapist that knew what FND was. From day one, we formed a bond. At the Williamstown Hospital where I was having physical therapy, I also began OT (occupational therapy) and thanks to my physio, I had an excellent OT plan created, allowing me to slowly build strength in my paralysed right hand. It was slow going. Some sessions, would see me move my hand, perhaps 5 cm along the table. But that activity caused such fatigue that I would sleep for a day and a half. NeuroPhysio was able to help me again help reconnect my internal software into knowing that to step I had to lift the leg up and down……up and down, again these sessions were also slow. It’s all progress, though and I learnt that even a little is the beginning of reconnecting my brains wiring to my body’s wiring.
In addition to the physical therapy, I began seeing a neuropsychologist. Again, I was sceptical how this could assist but as time went on, I began to learn that it was a spiralling of many things across my entire life that had caused my software malfunction. I had to work through the abuse that I had endured as a child and teenager as well as the many years living with the chronic combination of illnesses. I began to find that as my mind was being able to be cleansed of all the dark clutter that I had chosen to lock inside me, my body also was able to be cleansed. This psych work was working alongside the physical therapy.
I continue to use the physical therapies with the therapy to help the mental trauma, so that I can perhaps live the life that I most love. You see due to extreme fatigue and still requiring the walking frame for mobility when out n about I can’t work a ‘normal’ 40 hour job. I spend everyday working on healing, with the therapies that I’ve spoken about as well as using an adaptive yoga and meditation. I am also a vegan and I truly believe all my healing modalities are helping me to progress to those dreams and goals of living the life that I love.
Although I cannot work a normal job, I now act as a advocate and speaker for invisible illnesses. Each day, I get stronger I seek to add more objectives and goals for raising awareness, support and research for illnesses, such as FND. If you’ve been following me, you would have noticed that I am creating a ongoing campaign known as #lightingtheflame for #invisibleillness that works on shining a light on all unseen health conditions. My other campaign is #standingup4FND and that is fully focused on functional neurological disorder and will be linked to my future documentary and book.
Functional Neurological Disorder is an ongoing battle to overcome, as the symptoms flow in and out without any notice. Some symptoms can be lived with, others leave me severely impaired. This disorder, is a illness that very few know about and that includes the specialist medical fraternity. For I and many others across my country of Australia and many other countries worldwide to progress with our healing we need much needed awareness, support and so much more research.
If my story has helped you to understand the FND, please like and share this blog, or alternatively connect with me on social media at;
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I want us all to be able to walk together, so let’s bring a wave of kindness to stamp out the stigma that exists currently with regard to all invisible illness.
Much love
TBG 💋
Declaring mental, physical & financial bankruptcy….
Anyone who knows me well, will agree that I like to do everything myself. Due to STIGMA, I even hid the severity of my illnesses for a long time and in part lead me to nearly succeeding in suicide last year.
Deciding to be fully transparent and honest in declaring my mental, physical and financial bankruptcy is somewhat freeing and has allowed me to step into healing and living and loving a life that I want and need too.live Opening up, has also helped me realise my life mission and purpose and that is to better educate the world about chronic and mental health illnesses . I believe talking outwardly it has improved my health conditions and I want to help millions of others around the world to improve theirs too.
I want to tell you, that being a woman that has succumbed to chronic physical and mental health issues, it has been a struggle with a sense of guilt because of my many conditions, both physical and mental symptoms at times, make me feel like I was a burden or that I was causing trouble for my loved ones . This sense of guilt creates an anxiety that withers strengh away when unchecked. Sinking, deeper and darker forces you out of life because that physical and mental pain is unbearable – you are then unable to make a living, so as well as health being bankrupt, so are your finances. This is when life becomes non existence because you are so horribly ill, that you cannot work but because you are hiding the severity , your loved ones and the greater environment cant see the true extent of your problems.
I felt a failure for so long but since becoming fully transparent , I now know none of my health illnesses or my financial woes are to be blamed….what has occurred , has occurred. It is now about recovery in aspects of life so that I can keep moving forward on my life journey. By reducing the feeling of guilt within myself , my anxiety that comes from it, has lessened too. I am no longer shy to speak about my down times, because I am becoming aware of just how many people just like me there are around the globe in similar circumstances and they too are fearful of putting their hands up for help because of the STIGMA that shades invisible illnesses.
Standing up was really hard to do, and it was only for the fact that I failed at suicide that I am now where I am, but I’ve found that for myself, changing the way I think, breathe and live can make lifes wandering so much easier.
I now, try not to put myself in situations where I might have the temptation to hide even if it’s with the intention to avoiding hurting someone’s feelings. I find it helpful to breathe and speak an honest life because not only can I avoid the negative physical and mental effects, but I can be help others see that it’s ok to do the same. Sometimes now , as I speak it may be hurtful but it’s not about anyone in particular, it’s to explain how thoughts and feelings can cause negative connotations to mental and physical health and as spoken about when left unchecked it can badly affect all areas of life.
It’s not to say that I don’t hide myself anymore, because I do. But when you make it your goal to show your journey in total and that’s the good, bad and indifferent it’s very freeing for yourself and then others living similar chronic illness journeys begin to follow on. This is the beginning of raising awareness and just perhaps the beginning to ease the state of stigma. By telling the true chronically invisible health story I am showing that there is no need to feel guilty and finally the larger community and globe can learn and treat these health and life issues better.
If you need help, please don’t feel weak or not good enough to receive it! When, we step ourselves out into the world and let them hear our stories, we let the sun, shine through and so the stress, the hardship becomes bearable and thus healing really begins.
If you resonate with my story please like and share my post and let me know.
Lots of love
The Barefoot Goddess 💋
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“Wandering Towards Wellness, Globally “
Awaking My Truest & Highest Self as ‘Harmoni Shakti’💋
The modern day world sees us all running blindly and crazily around seeking what we think is important – we are seeking what appears to be that elusive higher self! Living like this, it is not my purpose and the more i try to seek what I think is important, the more frustration begins to border insanity for mind and body!
I lived 50 years of age like this! Now, don’t get me wrong, I’ve had amazing things happen across this life and there is no way I would want to run away, release or let go of any of that! But, I have also had abuse that nobody should ever have to deal with and after more personal stresses and worsening health conditions this year, I finally fell into such a dark depression and attempted suicide from life and the people that I love and the truest dreams and goals. But falling so hard also, allowed me to finally find the key to unlock my highest self! The callings from within me, yes from deep within me have had such an impact over my every present breath!
Awakening to my higher self has been met through opening up some very hidden belief systems that have been comfortably released. But, it basically has allowed an eternal, conscious, and intelligent woman being found – that woman is my real self. I now feel free enough to run & splash freely within the waves of life and it is now a inseparable ray of light through the Universe and myself.
Since having the awakening of whom I am and whom I have always been since a little girl, it has seen me change directions this last part of 2016, without thought or pondering possible repercussions. You see, finding, awakening and aligning to my truest balances within every single cell, I can now place myself into such a relaxed meditative state, even when troubling situations may come through to daily life. When this NOW occurs, my newest and truest highest self can direct the situation with new direction without thought and despite what may occur. Everyday, I journal but now my awakened self asks me to write write things down, perhaps single words, names, circumstances – I can then ask myself YES & NO questions about the issues causing friction. My body now answers with such clarity and alignment that my fearful and anxious thoughts, feelings and pain about my health, wealth and and life’s journey no longer disconnect and cause my chronic illnesses and disorders spiral like haywire into darkness.
With this year now into the last day and the new year laying with intentions I felt it was correct of me to see if I can help you align with your higher self too, using purely the wisdom of your mind and body and find how you learn to recognise the true connection when you achieve it. Because you see, when you align in this way, you are forever empowered. Since being chronically ill , I knew the Universe was trying to help me awaken but, it neeeded me to unlock what I require so that my life purpose became so clear, I could touch and taste it! Well, believe me , everyday I can NOW and it’s WHY I know I am finally on track, and allowing my truest life to begin and to embrace with a flow of grace and ease.
My higher self now, wants to be happy and to be feel connected all the time, although I may not always seem to like it. Living for ten years plus of chronic illnesses and then the 20, 30 and maybe even 40 years of abuse has lead me to bekng conditioned that suffering and hardship are normal and necessary to survive, but I now know this is not the truth. With all my highly stressed life paths, I also convinced myself to turn all of my illnesses and life events into fierce dramas to fill my days, weeks, months, and years. Now, I understand how I could never venture into my fullest and truest self and those dreams – there was always a block from closed up beliefs!
My higher self enjoys every experience that I have, I am learning and that’s even the horrible chronically debilitating health conditions but having said that, it also understands my grounded and earthly preferences and behavioral patterns need more attention particularly at certain times. I am also intimately now aware of the daily lessons given to me, so that i learn and that’s where NOW my higher self can gently push me toward the important goals needing to be actioned. This internal self of mine, holds all of my secrets, strengths and weaknesses solidly waiting for my claim, to release and let go of them, but I also know there is no hurry. I am so very aware of my eternal breath with nature, however at times it appears invisible.
The key to aligning with my higher self is now very simple because mainly because I find I align with my highest self by getting to know how my mind and body feels when my total balanced alignment is free to see and feel. By truly knowing the feelings, I can now work everyday on maintaining it by controlling the direction of my thoughts. All positive and negative bodily feelings are set in the thoughts, which I always kind of knew but I now know that my body feels as good as it can when my thoughts are in alignment with my highest self and when my body feels damaged in any way, my thoughts are misaligned. That is now my time to check deeply within, mastering and retriggering the alignment key to keep moving forward with health, life. I now understand that I have always had levels of connection with my highest self across my life journey when I may of felt joy, harmony, happiness, passion and peace in life, no matter how fleeting the circumstances may have been.
So, yes I know I am in alignment when my heart feels open and free allowing my body to feel as good as it needs to be and that is when I truly know I am healing. The feelings of being aligned and awakened can feel so very different to everyone on any given day, but some how there is a sense of wellbeing and connectedness that fills my body with a spark of creation. It’s these circumstances, that allow me to do so much forward moving work to my aligned self, message, mission and purpose in life.
Now that I can wander most days being truly awakened and aligned to my higher self most of the day, I can see that the conditioning along my ancestral, cultural, and family lines have made it so very difficult to access and transcend along a strict mental and physical level to show my best and truest gift to the world. This is why my body now feels that my birth name is not my truest and chosen at any given one. My mind and body are becoming so very sensitive at determining my next connected paths are needed so that I can continue to live in such alignment with my highest most self.
So friends and family, I wish to say goodbye to the little girl named ‘Lisa-Raie’and hello to ‘Harmoni Shakti’ who is my truest and highest version of me. She, and me as her will serve you in amazing ways, so I look forward to 2017 and those that walk with my truely aligned self taking and making impact for all that require assistance with chronically physical and mental health conditions.
Let’s wander friends and make 2017 a wonderful new chapter to the rest of our lives bringing clearance, clarity and true compassion to our truest and highest selves.
To my functional neurological disorder tribal goddesses, with my newly aligned self the campaign trail to bring a life that we love is here because I am ME and you are all you and together we are truly aligned to bring impact that has never been seen on the scale that I am created.
Much Love
Harmoni Shakti 💋
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“Wandering Towards Wellness, Globally “
Life Isn’t Fair Sometimes….But It’s About Blowing Sunshine & Sparkles ✨💩✨
Life isn’t fair sometimes, but hey I have found rainbows through the shit and I am ready to blow more sunshine across the globe despite the challenges that somehow find there way to me and through me. Let me explain;
This seems to be way to wander life’s journey. A huge storm cloud breaks over me. The thunder, lightning and rain completely overwhelms every facet of my being, I cry and scream. Then as if nothing has happened- there is a calmness through the darkness I let myself breathe and as I do the sunshine comes through the darkest clouds. As I am breathing, magic sparkles and allows energetic vibrational levels of healing energy to fill every level of my body again.
You see, I am the sunshine BUT I am also the crazy ravenous dark storm clouds. Somehow, though they mix well together to raise light, love, kindness and compassion for all of us that wander a life with chronic and invisible illnesses.
If this resonates with you somehow make sure you like and share it across the world because this will allow us all to walk together.
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Much love
Lisa-Raie 💋
“Wandering Towards Wellness, Globally”
When Growing Pains Become Journalling Sessions Which Then Turn To Blog Posts……👣
Wow, these words talk to me, they lift me up to that mountain so high! When you awaken from darkness, what happens is that you grow and expand to a higher realm of energy that you’ve never been consciously!
I think that’s why I’ve been able to make the steps that I have I’ve the last 24 hours. Those steps they shook me to the core, for an instant I thought that it was me moving backwards but after sitting inward I now know it’s growth with upleveling. I am so proud of myself for making it this far and I know I can make it to my destination in health and life.
Be BRAVE , self this is your time. Keep walking, keep talking for the world needs to hear what you have to say.
Much love
Lisa-Raie 💋
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” Wandering Towards Wellness, Globally”
A Barefoot Goddess On A Journey 