Just Let Go Of That Rope….

Living with chronic illness, feels as like you are holding onto a rope that’s going to give way at any given moment! Everything that you know is connected to that rope and god forbid if you and it were seperated!  So if you were to let go of that rope and you and everything you had ever known suddenly went splat – what would happen! HARSH! Well, yes but I am saying it because that was me! I had been holding on to a rope for fifteen or more years thinking that it was going to save me! The tighter I held onto myself, the harder it was to actually hold on and the worse I was becoming in health in its entirety! I was not myself in any shape or form……

MY ROPE SNAPPED……was I dead, no! I fell, not from grace not in anyone’s eyes except for my own! What happened, when I fell, was the fall that I needed. It awakened me to the fact, that the rope was keeping me stuck in pain and not just physical pain, but emotional, mental and spiritual pain! If you are reading this and you’ve been in this position or perhaps you are in this position, you know that this pain ties you up in knots and creates behaviours that are less than ideal. Holding onto that rope was taking from you, all that you were, all that you are and possibly all that you could be!!!

LET GO OF THAT ROPE! I beg you, SO WHAT IF YOU FALL! Better that you fall flat on your face, than you destroy what you are and what you could be….

When you fall, you seperate yourself from that rope. You give yourself freedom, you give yourself a breath of real air that you haven’t felt for so long! You are now free to wander in search of what you need to heal truly. I ask you, after you’ve read this to take a few moments to write a list of ‘what you are holding onto’ and then respond to each one of your answers with this question, ‘ what would happen if I let it all go’? Be totally honest!

I did this and wow what I was holding onto was fucking BS – they were excuses, they were all excuses held together by fear! Simply, everything that had happened to me years prior had been squeezing me so tightly, that stress had created  a fear ball of me! That fear made me so ill and those illnesses were my rope!

The rope needed to snap, so that I could heal! I couldn’t continue to live that way! Slowly and continuously, I began to heal. I started by being able to sit, then I could stand and walk. My personal next goal  is to scream and shout my way across the globe , telling anyone who wants to listen about my glorious life – because that’s what it is! My life is no longer wrapped in bandaids, it’s now a life open and celebrating the scars being free to be me just as I am!

To each one of you, living with or in mental, physical, emotional and spiritual pain….you don’t need to live like this; PLEASE LET GO and LET YOURSELF FALL. The gentle arms of life will catch you and teach you again to sit, stand, walk and talk about being free to be you!

If you are still afraid to let go….email me at harmonishakti@gmail.com 

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Much love 

TBG 💋

Easter Sunday – The resurrection and awakening of my feelings and emotions.

If you are a regular follower or reader to my blog…..my journey across life, you would see that I’ve been MIA! Oh wow, so many things are happening! My chronic illness awareness foundation is being created, my book is ever so close to being published, my documentary style film is in production and that’s just the start….So yes I’ve been busy, but through all of it, I’ve kept thinking of when my chronic pain and suffering was at its worst!

So yes memories have brought me back to this clean blog page!


It was Easter Sunday yesterday and I had a wonderful day! I thought the day would be hard with a certain person missing – YES, there were memories but I also know it wasn’t my idea to walk away!

Let me tell you, being an intuitive empath and one little lady with small feet and a big heart, that is very sensitive to energies and experiences that these circumstances bring up, is difficult, very difficult! But I’ve chosen a new lifestyle, one built upon foundations that are made up of healthy choices, organic choices – NOT one that blocks my emotions and feelings with alcohol and the abundantly prescribed painkilling substances.


I love that I can now catch my feelings and my emotions not as I used to, but in a way that allows me to continue my healing journey for me. In healing me, I am able to heal so many others and that allows me to peel back even more layers and open up chapters that are ready to be written. I have the key to living my most authentic life and it’s because I now have true  self love and self worth. It’s something that I had to learn across this my journey as I had never known it. 


But, god damn it, I have it because I chose to do the work – EVERYDAY & EVERYNIGHT!  It’s been a long apprenticeship but I took on the work, going deeper when I needed it and I still do – EVERYDAY & EVERYNIGHT! WHY, did I do this, well simply because it was necessary to heal all of me, all of my mind, body and spirit.

So memories, they will come and go, like people that will come and go – it’s all part of the journey!

I am just so very lucky that everyday, I get to live with clear eyes and a bright heart now walking the journey of life that I was meant to!

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Much love to you all and remember that that life is about hope, healing & chasing life.
TBG 💋

Stepping from illness to healthy my way!

Let me tell you, bringing back an exercise regime after such a long journey with chronic illness is sought with so much fear and anxiety. But, if I want to have the life that is filled with effervescent energy and clean health, I need to be starting again with rebuilding inner & outer health. So, i have got to do this properly and appropriately. I think bringing an exercise regime will help my body to heal faster physically and allow me to feel so much better  mentally, thus continuing to move forward with my dreams for the future.  But, thinking about this new journey, I also know how important it is to know the limitations that I have as it’s been a very long time since I’ve had fitness incorporated into my everyday. By increasing my activity slowly and with fierce patience, I hope I will be going to avoid injury and get back to a optimum state of health and fitness. Also this new regime will be done by working with my many doctors and rehabilitation specialists particularly my OT (occupational therapist) , NeuroPhysio and my yoga mentors. 


To resume and start this fitness regime after so long I need to make specific precautions to ensure that everything will be ok.

So where do I begin in making my plan;

  • First and foremost my steps to increasing physical therapy is by continual consultations with my doctors, therapists and mentors. The best thing i can do, as I start this exercise plan after being sick for so long is to talk continuously with my team of health professionals as a balancing tool of advocacy. 
  • The next point of call and important factors to remember are to recognise symptoms before and after any exercise I do. Knowing when to keep going or when to stop and seek attention is one action that most causes me some anxiety, but I also know that the thoughts are there because I haven’t done this in a long while.

Acknowledging that I am starting over is vital and no matter how healthy I was before becoming sick , this journey has taken a toll on my body. My bones, muscles and joints are all weaker than before and my stamina and endurance is much lower. Reminder to self – this is normal! Keep telling myself that I am starting over, like it’s my first ever time exercising. I think preparing myself mentally to start slow, will allow myself to increase my activity more and more overtime and will ensure my patience stays strong. I can and I will get fit, it is just going to take time.
One major thing I must remember is that my immune system has been compromised from my many complex conditions, so ensuring I can heal and overcome my illnesses in total means I cannot overwork my body. I know when I overwork myself, I feel unwell for at least the next day or maybe more.

In order for me to be successful with this regime, I need to plan ahead with making goals;

  1.  I will make my goals each week and write them down, so I will be more likely to achieve them – accountability is everything!
  2. I will write down my main goal, and then add smaller goals for one week, only, increasing to two weeks and a month as I progress. 
  3. I need to remember to be realistic and specific in my goals. 
  4. After each exercise session I will write down my accomplishments as a marker to see how far I am moving forward.

Most of all I, need to stay motivated by working to my weekly goals and exercise plans. Because this is a new journey in a while, there are going to be challenging times so working with my team will help me find a success.


So let me begin now by listening to my body. From yoga to cardio, if I can only exercise for 30 minutes each time, because I am feeling exhausted, that’s okay! Be proud of what I achieve in that session.  The most important goal for me, is to be always slightly outside of my comfort zone, without being in pain or having symptoms return. I’ve been ill for a long time, so even walking is a challenge, but with the help of my walker I will progress. I am in a position now, where I can begin. So I am starting small, even getting up to check the mailbox or a lap of the clothesline is a session. Then each day I will slowly and gradually increase the cardio and strength activity using the exercises mapped out by my neurophysio and remembering to incorporate mindfulness with yoga and meditation into each day.

I hope, if you are reading this I may have inspired you to think about starting or restarting a fitness regime after a long journey with illness. If you are able to start, believe me you will not regret the decision as despite the challenges it empowers and awakens mind and body and brings a new level of healing. Just, please make sure you have a wonderful team around you. 

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Dancing Through The Storm Of Life……

“Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass… It’s about learning to dance in the rain”


This quote is probably my most favourite quote in the whole damn universe, as it so clearly breathes an accent built on living, not just waiting for the right time to start or restart the exact life path for ourselves. I see so many people just waiting for that right moment! When is that right moment anyway?
I love how the quote speaks about not avoiding the storm but yet continuing despite the rain and doing what you most want to do. Waiting  for that storm, the not so nice conditions just makes time pass, BUT seriously what gets done while you wait?  Nothing – absolutely nothing gets done while we wait.


Learning to dance in the rain, with the noise and all of the mess that life can bring, helps us in a weird way to enjoy the continuing storms that come and go in our forwarding journey.So being able to dance and enjoy life, no matter what the conditions bring, is vital for our mind, body & souls health. We all face storms in our lives and it’s up to us, individually on how we will respond to the challenging noise and mess that it brings. Will we hide, waiting for the storm to pass, or will we continue with moving forward in our lives, stepping across even the most dark and dangerous weather conditions. We need to make a choice?.

The quote calls it waiting, but I call it wasting time!  What is happening by waiting, is that we and our life is just drifting across space and that does nothing to move us forward to a life that wants and needs to be lived .

Rather than, losing that time that can’t ever come back we are better off taking action. Which is why, in analogy terms, its just best to step out from the shelter and into the storm and just get soaking wet. By being out in the middle of the rain, it’s vital that we learn to dance in the midst of those storm clouds, so at very least we can do is, attempt to fix the problem that’s causing all the rain. As another quote, quite clearly says, “ rain, hail or shine – life goes on & so must I “. Saying that we are dancing  in the rain is enjoyable isn’t exactly true but it is showing that we are doing something, and even if it is not the best time, or with the best  weather, we are making the most of a troubling time by trying something different and that is enjoyable in again a strange kind of way.

So in my opinion, choosing to wait for the storm to pass, is equivalent to letting opportunities slip by.  I know for sure, that I have hidden from some massive storms and left chances of working with people and or opportunities slip past me. I choose not to do that anymore, as I don’t want to leave anything hanging on a woulda, coulda, shoulda hook anymore. Life is worth chancing and if it means standing or dancing out in the rain, hail or sleet I will do it.  For you reading this now, how many storms are you hiding from? While we all have our reasons and or excuses, because i did too, in the end, we either are doing things or we are not doing things, it’s our own choice.

Our life is our life, we can choose to be miserable or happy!  I know what I choose, what will you choose – dancing in the rain, or waiting for the continuing storm to pass?

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As the rambles continue…..

You know those days & even when you live a clean and free life , you will have them……don’t squash them in – let them out…… rant them, cry them, scream them……

Shadows that scream when I’m alone EVEN when I’m not alone….ahhhh yes it’s just that I’ve got a migraine! It’s the internal war that rages behind my face and above my throat!My pain will be up, down, and sideways!

BUT let it be said what the headache represents is me defending in suspense!

It’s me suspended in a defenseless test!

Being tested by a ruthless universe examiner !

One moment of weakness , doesn’t mean you’ve failed, it doesn’t mean you’ve been defeated- it’s you stopping to rest, stopping to restore! Let that headache, that migraine heal and tomorrow you will be strong again! You will stand and you will conquer!

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So Dark & So Deep Are The Secrets That You Keep….

So how much do I want life?  How much do I love life?  How deep and dark are the secrets that I keep?These are the questions I’ve been pondering!?!

What appears to be such a long time ago but it really isn’t that long ago…..I saw pain, I felt pain in the realism of wanting the very best , to be the very best for me and my only true beloved and wanted life and career!
It began at the age of three and YES from about 11 to the age of 17, all I breathed, all I wanted was to be a professional ballerina! I practiced, I breathed , I bled , cried and screamed!

When the blessed journey came crashing down , I guess that was when life began to fall down as well. That evil monster who deemed dance was not a life journey – that monster, hid me, destroyed me and punished me for years !
Life in all its entirety never really had the same oomph – There was no stage, there was no reason! 


Over the future forward years,  because my truest self had died, life died and became filled with unwanted pursuits and illness! 

2016, found me destitute and in suicides hive – it was then I realised that life could still be lived, life could still be loved! The dream for everything wanted, is never over! Age, illness, life’s journey it is all dependent on us not the circumstance or numbers! Believe in your stance and most inner breath! Be the goddess, be the strength that is within!


I have been awakened and I have been aligned to my truest self – that self in tutus , pink tights, practice leotards & ballet shoes . That self is a member of the 1% in the 1% and I have success within my veins for obtaining top level love and life because I know what it takes to get there!

So today, let me take you on a journey to find you , not what everyone wants to see, BUT that you that you are! It begins with that little person of long ago – yes she is still there – AWAKEN HER NOW!

Step up onto the stage of life, with the much loved pointe shoes on and feel all of those broken toes, bruises and abrasions . Feel the pain, feel the joy and dance on because it’s what makes you live! If you have narcissists telling you , that is not the life journey- cast them aside because honey, this life is you, of course it’s your life journey! 
I stood in the darkness for way too long – but no one is ever too old to be what ever they are truly meant to be! Get out and shine…..

This is me, I am alive, I am able to shine because I have the pain bringing me back to the joy of life…..and before I step out on my stage, I never forget to breathe and know that this is where I am meant to be and it’s why I can’t help but smile.

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Don’t Just Sit….Get Out To NeuroPhysio – (the progress it does become visible) ❤️

So I want to tell you something about what happens to the body after suffering a stroke or because  of some kind of neurological disorder. Our muscles become stiff because of the neural paths being damaged or blocked.  Learning or may I say relearning/retraining the brain and body to connect has been both physically and mentally draining to say the least. But I also know, that regular daily simple exercises can help alleviate the stiffness and can slowly retrigger the brains neural paths . Regularity is key and so is making exercises a part of your daily routine.


When my physical therapy was approved, I was ready ready, oh so ready to begin the steps to again be active. I believe that sitting is the new smoking – WHY?  Well, I know for myself , that sitting for extended periods is particularly detrimental to my physical and mental health. But I also know, that it is very often difficult for us, the people who have neurological disabilities to move around easily and standing up and walking may not always be the answer – similar to a smoker being told to give up, I would imagine!
Let me tell you, it is so difficult to go from being active to inactive. After the paralysis to one side of my body, and other bodily breakdowns, it was so much easier to  sit for longer times. But I realise that’s not necessarily correct as it turns out,  with regular daily practice it becomes easier to get up if you start slowly waking the body up a bit first.  Initially, I wondered how infact was I going to do that , but then the joy OF mindfulness returned to me. Each day I would sit up as tall as I  could and I would take three or four , maybe more deep breaths in and out, bigger each time and I would keep sitting up taller as I  breathed out. I was not just waking up the muscles in my body but I was strengthening my mind too, that I actually could do whatever I wanted to do!
So the path to rehab changed , but oh the struggle was and is still so real. Because, as “I am fine walking if it’s level and light, life’s not like that is it? There are those bumps and curves when you least expect them.


This phrase sticks in my mind and really encapsulates the daily struggles  when you are living with neurological disabilities. It all wanders a smooth and straight path but when getting out and about to neuroPhysio becomes difficult  whether its. because of the weather or perhaps the car that would normally take you is not available, or perhaps some other reason, i again start doubting myself and oh it’s easy to just sit !


But I keep myself together and I keep my head up, doing what I can, breathing in, breathing out, till I can again work together with my therapist one on one to re-gain confidence in standing , walking and living life.  It is about remembering that “one bad day, doesn’t make a bad life”. Keeping my confidence is so important on this journey, as I rebuild my body and being able to get to rehab sessions is that external encouragement, by being with the (therapist) which makes the  difference and allows me to continue with excellent progress in body and mind.

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