So Dark & So Deep Are The Secrets That You Keep….

So how much do I want life?  How much do I love life?  How deep and dark are the secrets that I keep?These are the questions I’ve been pondering!?!

What appears to be such a long time ago but it really isn’t that long ago…..I saw pain, I felt pain in the realism of wanting the very best , to be the very best for me and my only true beloved and wanted life and career!
It began at the age of three and YES from about 11 to the age of 17, all I breathed, all I wanted was to be a professional ballerina! I practiced, I breathed , I bled , cried and screamed!

When the blessed journey came crashing down , I guess that was when life began to fall down as well. That evil monster who deemed dance was not a life journey – that monster, hid me, destroyed me and punished me for years !
Life in all its entirety never really had the same oomph – There was no stage, there was no reason! 


Over the future forward years,  because my truest self had died, life died and became filled with unwanted pursuits and illness! 

2016, found me destitute and in suicides hive – it was then I realised that life could still be lived, life could still be loved! The dream for everything wanted, is never over! Age, illness, life’s journey it is all dependent on us not the circumstance or numbers! Believe in your stance and most inner breath! Be the goddess, be the strength that is within!


I have been awakened and I have been aligned to my truest self – that self in tutus , pink tights, practice leotards & ballet shoes . That self is a member of the 1% in the 1% and I have success within my veins for obtaining top level love and life because I know what it takes to get there!

So today, let me take you on a journey to find you , not what everyone wants to see, BUT that you that you are! It begins with that little person of long ago – yes she is still there – AWAKEN HER NOW!

Step up onto the stage of life, with the much loved pointe shoes on and feel all of those broken toes, bruises and abrasions . Feel the pain, feel the joy and dance on because it’s what makes you live! If you have narcissists telling you , that is not the life journey- cast them aside because honey, this life is you, of course it’s your life journey! 
I stood in the darkness for way too long – but no one is ever too old to be what ever they are truly meant to be! Get out and shine…..

This is me, I am alive, I am able to shine because I have the pain bringing me back to the joy of life…..and before I step out on my stage, I never forget to breathe and know that this is where I am meant to be and it’s why I can’t help but smile.

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Don’t Just Sit….Get Out To NeuroPhysio – (the progress it does become visible) β€οΈ

So I want to tell you something about what happens to the body after suffering a stroke or because  of some kind of neurological disorder. Our muscles become stiff because of the neural paths being damaged or blocked.  Learning or may I say relearning/retraining the brain and body to connect has been both physically and mentally draining to say the least. But I also know, that regular daily simple exercises can help alleviate the stiffness and can slowly retrigger the brains neural paths . Regularity is key and so is making exercises a part of your daily routine.


When my physical therapy was approved, I was ready ready, oh so ready to begin the steps to again be active. I believe that sitting is the new smoking – WHY?  Well, I know for myself , that sitting for extended periods is particularly detrimental to my physical and mental health. But I also know, that it is very often difficult for us, the people who have neurological disabilities to move around easily and standing up and walking may not always be the answer – similar to a smoker being told to give up, I would imagine!
Let me tell you, it is so difficult to go from being active to inactive. After the paralysis to one side of my body, and other bodily breakdowns, it was so much easier to  sit for longer times. But I realise that’s not necessarily correct as it turns out,  with regular daily practice it becomes easier to get up if you start slowly waking the body up a bit first.  Initially, I wondered how infact was I going to do that , but then the joy OF mindfulness returned to me. Each day I would sit up as tall as I  could and I would take three or four , maybe more deep breaths in and out, bigger each time and I would keep sitting up taller as I  breathed out. I was not just waking up the muscles in my body but I was strengthening my mind too, that I actually could do whatever I wanted to do!
So the path to rehab changed , but oh the struggle was and is still so real. Because, as “I am fine walking if it’s level and light, life’s not like that is it? There are those bumps and curves when you least expect them.


This phrase sticks in my mind and really encapsulates the daily struggles  when you are living with neurological disabilities. It all wanders a smooth and straight path but when getting out and about to neuroPhysio becomes difficult  whether its. because of the weather or perhaps the car that would normally take you is not available, or perhaps some other reason, i again start doubting myself and oh it’s easy to just sit !


But I keep myself together and I keep my head up, doing what I can, breathing in, breathing out, till I can again work together with my therapist one on one to re-gain confidence in standing , walking and living life.  It is about remembering that “one bad day, doesn’t make a bad life”. Keeping my confidence is so important on this journey, as I rebuild my body and being able to get to rehab sessions is that external encouragement, by being with the (therapist) which makes the  difference and allows me to continue with excellent progress in body and mind.

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Happy New Year – Welcome To Life, Awakened & Aligned….πŸ™πŸ»

Today, 1,1,2017 begins a whole new step into my truest and highest selves life path!2016, was turbulent, but through the bumps and bruises, it brought openings in myself that I had attempting for years! But the door opened and I stepped in, taking WHAT was mine. Through doing so, I’ve been able to release , off load and let go of stuff that had been stuffed and packed into the deepest most insular cells within me. But they are gone and I am now free, in pure nakedness to express myself as I need to. Another reason for my name change, I’m not the little girl “Lisa-Raie” that was born to this world and forced into being what I am NOT! I am the bliss through the storms , I am a creative because of the energy sent from Mother Earth’s universal platform. 

By awakening and aligning fully, I have gained the true shakti energy that my yoga and meditation training had taught me back in days gone by! 

When you receive the shakti energy , you come alive, you are luminous and you are desirable!

Having the shakti within allows the essence of vibrant health, feeling good in your own skin and feeling that your life has meaning and value. This is why, I know from today I have the ability to transform the understanding of what invisible health complexities are and I can set real change to making better and more improved treatments available for all that require them. When you have the energy of shakti you have the energy to engage with life in more meaningful ways. The shakti energy empowers you to seek growth and change and to find purpose and fulfilment in everyday life. Shakti is the foundation for a conscious life. When Shakti is directed inwards it empowers you to raise your consciousness, to experience yourself as part of something greater. Ultimately, Shakti is the fuel that powers your spiritual growth and the awakening of consciousness not just in me but in others too.

Since awakening and aligning to my highest self I know what it is like to feel alive and well within my body, mind and spirit and it is why I know my true healing has  begun.

I am the barefoot goddess – Harmoni Shakti πŸ’‹

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Awaking My Truest & Highest Self as ‘Harmoni Shakti’πŸ’‹

The modern day world sees us all running blindly and crazily around seeking what we think is important – we are seeking what appears to be that elusive higher self! Living like this, it is not my purpose and the more i try to seek what I think is important, the more frustration begins to border insanity for mind and body!

I lived 50 years of age like this! Now, don’t get me wrong, I’ve had amazing things happen across this life and there is no way I would want to run away, release or let go of any of that!  But, I have also had abuse that nobody should ever have to deal with and after more personal stresses and worsening health conditions this year, I finally fell into such a dark depression and attempted suicide from life and the people that I love and the truest dreams and goals. But falling so hard also, allowed me to finally find the key to unlock my highest self! The callings from within me, yes from deep within me have had such an impact over my every present breath! 

Awakening to my higher self has been met through opening up some very hidden belief systems that have been comfortably released. But, it basically has allowed an eternal, conscious, and intelligent woman being found – that woman is my real self. I now feel free enough to run & splash freely within the waves of life and it is now a inseparable ray of light through the Universe and myself. 

Since having the awakening of whom I am and whom I have always been since a little girl, it has seen me change directions this last part of 2016, without thought or pondering possible repercussions. You see, finding, awakening and aligning to my truest balances within every single cell, I can now place myself into such a relaxed meditative state, even when troubling situations may come through to daily life. When this NOW occurs, my newest and truest highest self can direct the situation with new direction without thought and despite what may occur. Everyday, I journal but now my awakened self asks me to write write things down, perhaps single words, names, circumstances – I can then ask myself YES & NO questions about the issues causing friction. My body now answers with such clarity and alignment that my fearful and anxious thoughts, feelings and pain about my health, wealth and and life’s journey no longer disconnect and cause my chronic illnesses and disorders spiral like haywire into darkness. 

With this year now into the last day and the new year laying with intentions  I felt it was correct of me to see if I can help you align with your higher self too,  using purely the wisdom of your mind and body and find how you learn to recognise the true connection when you achieve it. Because you see, when you align in this way, you are forever empowered. Since being chronically ill , I knew the Universe was trying to help me awaken but, it neeeded me to unlock what I require so that my life purpose became so  clear, I could touch and taste it! Well, believe me , everyday I can NOW and it’s WHY I know I am finally on track, and allowing my truest life to begin and to embrace with a flow of grace and ease.

My higher self now, wants to be happy and to be feel connected all the time, although I may not always seem to like it. Living for ten years plus of chronic illnesses and then the 20, 30 and maybe even 40 years of abuse has lead me to bekng conditioned that suffering and hardship are normal and necessary to survive, but I now know this is not the truth. With all my highly stressed life paths, I also convinced myself to turn all of my illnesses and life events into fierce dramas to fill my days, weeks, months, and years. Now, I understand how I could never venture into my fullest and truest self and those dreams – there was always a block from closed up beliefs!


My higher self enjoys every experience that I have, I am learning and that’s even the horrible chronically debilitating health conditions but having said that, it also understands my grounded and earthly preferences and behavioral patterns need more attention particularly at certain times. I am also intimately now aware of the daily lessons given to me, so that i learn and that’s where NOW my higher self can gently push me toward the important goals needing to be actioned. This internal self of mine, holds all of my secrets, strengths and weaknesses solidly waiting for my claim, to release and let go of them, but I also know there is no hurry. I am so very aware of my eternal breath with nature, however at times it appears invisible.

The key to aligning with my higher self is now very simple because mainly because I find I align with my highest self by getting to know how my mind and body feels when my total balanced alignment is free to see and feel. By truly knowing the feelings, I can now work everyday on maintaining it by controlling the direction of my thoughts. All positive and negative bodily feelings are set in the thoughts, which I always kind of knew but I now know that my body feels as good as it can when my thoughts are in alignment with my highest self and when  my body feels damaged in any way, my  thoughts are misaligned. That is now my time to check deeply within, mastering and retriggering the alignment key to keep moving forward with health, life. I now understand that I have always had levels of connection with my highest self across my life journey when I may of felt joy, harmony, happiness, passion and peace in life, no matter how fleeting the circumstances may have been.  

So, yes I know I am in alignment when my heart feels open and free allowing my body to feel as good as it needs to be and that is when I truly know I am healing. The feelings of being aligned and awakened can feel so very different to everyone on any given day, but some how there is a sense of wellbeing and connectedness that fills my body with a spark of creation. It’s these circumstances, that allow me to do so much forward moving work to my aligned self, message, mission and purpose in life.

Now that I can wander most days being truly awakened and aligned to my higher self most of the day, I can see that the conditioning along my ancestral, cultural, and family lines have made it so very difficult to access and transcend along a strict mental and physical level to show my best and truest gift to the world. This is why my body now feels that my birth name is not my truest and chosen at any given one. My mind and body are becoming so very sensitive at determining my next connected paths are needed so that I can continue to live in such alignment with my highest most self. 

So friends and family, I wish to say goodbye to the little girl named ‘Lisa-Raie’and hello to ‘Harmoni Shakti’ who is my truest and highest version of me. She, and me as her will serve you in amazing ways, so I look forward to 2017 and those that walk with my truely aligned self taking and making impact for all that require assistance with chronically physical and mental health conditions.


Let’s wander friends and make 2017 a wonderful new chapter to the rest of our lives bringing clearance, clarity and true compassion to our truest and highest selves.

To my functional neurological disorder tribal goddesses, with my newly aligned self the campaign trail to bring a life that we love is here because I am ME and you are all you and together we are truly aligned to bring impact that has never been seen on the scale that I am created.

Much Love 

Harmoni Shakti πŸ’‹

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“I Am United In The Oneness Of Earths Spirit”

“I am United in the oneness of earths spirit”

WOW, what happens when you awaken, when you align to your truest self! 
I am the spirit of the earth, and my hand connects through to the earths loving expression. 
I feel the earths breath and I am free to play in her garden where it is filled with colour and joy! This spirit of earth is here to carry me back to all that I am! ❀️

I am the river, blue with the ray of communication. I’ve been laying quiet with the blessings that the endless sky gives me….and what it’s opening me up to me is purity, clarity, and the art of my truthful voice! I’ve been listening well to the earth mothers spirit and as she whispers her song, it lets me dance in every cell.
I am now finally stepping back into calm waters that I am.
Wandering again, I am on the pathway to my truest eternal voice of the feminine spirit & I will let her joyfully rise so that the clouds will always be full of the sacred rains of love. 

“The serpent has swallowed its tail and the age of greatness has found its home” within me!


My life has been blessed by the spirit of the earth! 

For so long, I’ve was ‘ungrounded’, my connection to the earth was compromised-I was broken physically,emotionally, mentally and spiritually! 

But my time to walk has awakened, the spirit of the earth has reunited my truest self and all parts of me are beginning to communicate with each other again! Life is about to be back on track again, getting closer to nature in the coming year will also help BUT its through my voice, that it’s the real tool of change & I will use it wisely!

I am the spirit of the earth, an ungrounded spirit now free to breathe as I detoxify my mind and body! I am communication, expression, creativity and balance.

This is the rise of the goddess and I am the barefoot goddess who is united in the oneness of earths spirit! ❀️

Namaste beautiful beings,

Lisa-Raie πŸ’‹
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Chronic & Mental Illness Doesn’t Change Me From Whom I Was….So Please Don’t Stigmatise ME!!!

So as I lay here this warm summer evening in  Australia and I am thinking about the multiple chronic illnesses that I have. But there is one that stands out for all the wrong reasons! That health condition is Functional Neurological Disorder. It was a condition, that was not offered to me, but as many others it was given. The road wandered is hard! Some days it can feel like I am not really that sick, but then there are the najority of days that leave me wondering, why I have to be one of the small percentage of people around the globe that have to endure the most horrible pain and suffering that anyone has to deal with. 

Unfortunately, this is the hand I’ve been dealt , so let me get to , walking on and strong. It’s how I choose to use this hand throughout my life. This health condition which is Functional Neurological Disorder, will keep you down in such darkness or uplift you to such sunny skies. I can tell you that FND, can keep you tied down or it can you lift you up!  I have used so many different treatment plans and therapies. BUT , now I’ve found a path . It’s allowed me to walk past and through the ‘denial phase’ , where I just didn’t want to know. I am now in the ‘acceptance phase’ where I understand the difficulties that I face and that I will face.  

BUT , now all I want is to be the light, so that I can shine for others, through their phases  – initial and long term !  As we get ready to welcome the new year in, I will be launching two books, one about my own illness and life journeys and one filled with stories from my brothers & sistas  and their journeys. I have also created a storyline for my awareness documentary , a Ebook stepping the baby steps using yummy healthy vegan food..

If this resonates with you again , please connect and join my little tribe, because when we walk together, we simply the sun and our lives.

So if you broken, please know you are not alone and you definitely don’t need to stay broken, I am here and we are here together and we will become strong again.

Much love 

Lisa-Raie

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24 Hours, Words & FREEDOM!

Been listening to quite a bit of #GeorgeMichael in this last 24 hours as a lot of us probably have. The words from ‘Freedom’ have resonated more than ever for how I wandered life thanks to a narcissistic parent, so much that I’ve penned some ramblings with the help of George’s lyrics;

I won’t let you down dad,

I will not give your vision up.

I won’t let you down,

So please don’t give me up,

Because I would love you to stick around.

BUT abuse, it kills, it wipes out hope!

Your vision it was not real & as just a little girl, it made me even more unsure of what I wanted to be. Teenage years struck & I could flee and it was so easy to become an angel wrapped in devils wings, so hungry for my own  pride and joy, and I guess it was enough for me at that time! I was gonna show you dad – I was going to win the race! I would be the prettier face. But, soon I found adulthood & that was not gonna be the way I was going to play the game of life! No way, No Way,NO WAY!

I decided I was gonna get myself happy.

I think there’s something you should know dad

I think it’s time I told you so…..

There’s something deep inside of me – something better than YOU!

There’s someone else I’ve got to be……AND it’s ME!

When I am me, I don’t let anyone down- the vision is real, my life is real! 

That picture of you, it’s been missing for years because with it gone I am back singing in the shower and dancing in the rain. I know you won’t understand BUT sometimes your clothes don’t make my life!

All I have to do, now,in my life , is take the lies that you made me live and make them true!!!

All this life needs to see

Is that I don’t belong to you,

And you don’t belong to me.

Freedom, Freedom, Freedom!

I won the race.

I got outta your narcissistic place.

I found my home AND finally I’ve got a brand new face that you’ll never see except if you see this on the TV!

Today, the way I play the game has changed.

Oh, yeah.

Now EVERYDAY , I am gonna let myself be happy.

For me and not for YOU, and that’s something you should know!

I think it’s time I stopped your show – I have and I won’t be back again. I have the POWER, not YOU!!

Well it looks like my road to heaven, is set in sunshine not like the road to hell that you gave me for more than half my life!

You nearly made me take a knife and my life!

There will be no more posing for pictures, It’s time to shake my ass and that’s something you will notice very fast, but hey some mistakes were built to last. That’s what you get, but I’ll hold on to them but I will also hold my freedom, freedom, FREEDOM!

May not be what you want from me but that’s the way it’s got to be. I’ve got to live and by live I mean to be free, not bow and curtsy to your every whim…..

Freedom, freedom, FREEDOM life is mine, NOT yours!
George Michael, you’ve gone but you’ve left a legacy for us all! You’ve given us faith and freedom and so much more!
Freedom, it’s here for us all!

Lisa-Raie πŸ‘£

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